By Ella Martha
As I turn 22 I feel like I’m one step away from breaking point
I’m mourning for the life I’ve lost the past 2 years
I’m mourning for my adolescence and my time to do whatever I like
I’m mourning for the family that I’ve missed and those I haven’t seen in years
I’m mourning for the trips I had planned
I’m mourning for the person I wanted to be
I’m mourning for the future I had dreamed of
I’m mourning for the loss of my past and future self
I’m mourning for the precious time missed spending with
my grandparents
I’m mourning for the world and the women and girls
in Afghanistan
I’m mourning for the climate and the lack of care the government have for my future
I’m mourning for the children I wanted to be able to bring into this world
And I feel guilty for it all
